POCKET FULL OF SORROWS !!!

One Sunday morning I asked myself, ‘Why wasn’t God so particular in his choice when he created all of us’. Just like we have our father, mother, brothers and sisters in our family, why weren’t we blessed with a soul mate right from the very beginning? Well this thought struck me not before I had ample time, to spend my weekend at my 3BHK flat all alone. For the last five of them spent here I have explored that loneliness is no better than a chronic illness that kills you slowly but certainly. Perhaps it is the worst punishment that God could have ever imagined of. A man, in this world of billions of living creatures, cornered in his own world. No laughs, no fights, no one to talk to, that one readily accepts grief to defy loneliness.

I can feel the shift. I hardly enjoy playing games now, could barely spare out time to watch movies, no more fancy playing Rock songs. I remember how I used to crave for a game of Mario or for a ride on Lamborghini in the NFS Most Wanted. My weekdays are very eventful though.       I enjoy being in the office more, surrounded by people whom I’ve merely known for more than a month.  I complete my task; get back home, decently satisfied with my day’s work. It’s then when things starts churning up .You are forced to look at the other side of the coin. The side full of sorrows, disappointments, regrets and above all loneliness. It’s now when the importance of having a girl by your side comes into the picture. You come back home with no one to pamper you, no one to offer a cup of tea. You have a 48 hrs weekend ahead but no one to spend it with. You earn a handsome purse of money without any clue of spending it. You break down. Heart filled with grief and mind full of anxiety. You can weep no more, because you have exhausted every single drop in your eyes. It’s then when you realize that money for sure has its limits, and not everything, at least not happiness can be purchased.